For the past few days I've literally been crying myself sh-tless. I don't understand exactly where this is all coming from but I definitely can say that I think heartbreak has a lot to do with it. And I don't necessarily think it's about the fate of a relationship I've been trying to build with a certain someone but I think it's more so anger towards my myself for trusting my emotions and allowing myself to be open to potentially falling for someone.
I've been talking to this guy for a little while now and I thought everything was going as perfectly as possible but as of last week a few of his tweets (damn you twitter!) left me disturbed and confused. Now, I know what you're probably thinking, "Oh, Lord! Another potential relationship gone down the drain due to an insecure little girl tweet checking this man.. Cue the violins." And I honestly, I don't care if that is the opinion of some or most. But it's my earnest belief that if you're talking to someone about starting something as special as a relationship, you should at least have the decency to keep your extracurricular b.s. to a minimum or not be audiciauos enough to post it where they could potentially see it. Anyway since then, our conversations have seemed to get shorter and shorter. They lack the luster and depth they once had. I can just sense everything on the decline.
And from the conversation I've had with a mutual friend of ours, it just isn't meant to last. I guess now the question is: how do you get over someone while still keeping the line of communication with them open?
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... I give up!
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